Gathering

So now the few of us are getting hungry but we're settling for some self-made sandwichhhh

But Meiqi and Ag had to leave, if not we would definitely spend the whole night talking 

Supper time 

People in the house for some drinking and gathering to be done. 

But no they are not gonna get drunk, I'm not letting any of them get drunk 

LWA gathering huh Triff. 

Anyway help me decide between a blackberry or iphone pretty please. 

Framing doesn't really work. If this is what you think will work then so be it. 

My conscience is clear and I'm glad I wasn't rash 

Goodnight, some of us are falling asleep 

Check back again soon ok

Whatever you like

Mary Jane-The Click Five. This is awesome, it's so .. Go listen to it, I had a hard time adding it to my playlist

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

I've my hair banded up, fresh clean face and had a mini wash up. 

Why am I even saying all this here? I know why, because I feel like it

I'm staring at my empty room, okay it's not exactly empty because my room is always messy but momsie just tidied it up for me. Guess she just couldn't stand the sight of my room anymore. 

I can have like loose change all over my floor because once they dropped onto the floor. I would be too lazy to bend down to pick them up again. So I decide to just let them be

Alright I'm done with Math or at least I'm done with it in secondary school. 

We all know that there's no ending to learning more math, be in it pri, sec, poly, private, uni or even when we're working. Language isn't something that we can stop learning to 

Sidetrack, Mom told me to take law if I were to choose the private route. Worth some consideration. Will decide after I get my results which is like in a few months time. 

For now let me continue deceiving myself ok?

More and more people are getting complete yeah? But still I'm back to square one. The usuals in school will know what I mean but don't worry I'm still very happy for you all ok! 

After O's, steady right! 

Anyway if it wasn't for them today I don't know what time would I be able to step into school?

Or maybe I would have to get drenched like shit before I even manage to school. 

They had to come and escort me in and they got their shoes wet, like really wet 

Another sidetrack, I scare the hell out of Siewhoon today. So sorry huh! Let's go out soon alright

I seems to have so much to say every night. I'm given two days off from papers because the smart me decides to give up Amath and I think it was a rather wise choice for me because I'll never get to include it in my L1R4. With a single digit score, tell me would that ever be possible?

I think I need to try to make myself sleep soon. 

Ever since, I haven't been catching much sleep. Seems like I can just survive on breathing in air. 

Ok cousin is laughing his ass off as he read the comment that my lil bro left on Facebook on one of my pictures.

"You will die!" 

Then the both of us started imagining how he would sound in real life with the effect of a psychopathic voice, that goes like "mwhahahaha, you will die, you will die"

Seriously I don't know what's wrong with me. 

Goodnight, xoxo

My everything

Listen to all we'd ever want by Lady Antebellum.

And I've kept all the words you said
In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me

I woke up walking around the house aimlessly before I finally decides that it's time to take a shower and prepare for the paper. 

The best thing was I slept at 5am, chill downstairs till 4 and didn't touch a single bit of Emath. 

Good thing today's paper was kinda easy. 

But it's too soon to say, maybe I screwed it up as well, but hopefully not. 

My intuition tells me that paper two would not be as easy as today's. 

Should I prep myself up for it. Don't really feel like, maybe I'll later but not now. 

I just feel like burying my head into my pillow and under the covers. 

If all of them were not with me, I bet I would die. 

For sure 

I need to find things to do that makes me happy but like what?

Any ideas?

Anyway I'm already more than half done with my O's. 

I'm more concerned about what I'll be doing after I get out of this school.

Pamper myself, although I do not deserve it. But wait wasn't I suppose to do things that makes me happy so yeah I should pamper myself. 

Bye I shall bury my head under my covers now 

7th Oct 

Cold Rock@Holland V 

Shermaine skipped after school lessons to look for momsie

Because I needed a haircut so badly and my eyebrows needs some trimming too 

So, off I went to get all this done with Mom. 

So much fresher but apparently some say there wasn't a difference but I think it was a hell lot of different okay! 

Like I think I chopped off like 4 inch or something

Then met bestfr to Holland for some ice-cream 

Overflowing 

Cheesecake and Strawberry with apple pie fillings 

Bestfr, better go out for some studying to be done and don't worry so much about it alr. 

For all you know, I'm here for private school with you 

Mdis baby 

Keep coming out with new poses then I've to keep snapping 

I just hope it goes my way 

Love

I know this  clip is long but watch the entire clip. 

I think it's so god damn real and it touched me. 

Both the lyrics and the scenes itself. 

Probably because it's kind of relevant 

Box

I'm on the phone now with them and yes as usual we're whining about every single thing. 

We're stress about us not being stress about O's at all. 

Probably screwing up my math and sciences 

But now all we can think of is what will happen after O's. 

Anyway I found another Mdis/Laselle buddy, be happy for me 

I'm still deciding whether or not to go to the beach tomorrow. 

And what am I gonna do there? Study? Bullshit, how on earth am I going to concentrate at a beach. 

Maybe I'll just listen to my ipod and read some books. 

That's like something to relieve myself of all frustrations 

Like what I did with Meiqi at last night. We let off everything 

I dragged them to starbucks today and it was quite a good environment for studying only that the place was so cold and I kind of forgotten to remind them to bring their jackets there. 

So more than half the time Triff was telling us how cold she was. 

I was tweeting my time away. That's what I'm capable of when left to study on my own 

Then... 

Well well, everyone has their flaws and all. 

It's whether others are able to accept them or not. 

Everyone is at fault and I'm not pointing at anyone because I can't say I'm guilt-free 

After hearing so many different perspective, after confusing myself with everything, I'm gonna think through everything again 

I think I'll better stop here before I start mumbling everything I type here over the phone. 

One of the days we decide for a day to meet downstairs to study 

But we kind of failed if not why am I in this state now with zero knowledge about math in my mind . 

Not exactly zero though 

I'm not some total retard 

Fooling our ass off 

Hi 

Goodnight, tomorrow will be a new and better day 

Over

I take back my words about blogging today. 

My eyes are like slipping shut. 

But I don't really know how I manage to get here. 

I slept throughout the cab journey and they had to wake me up when they reach my place. 

I wonder why there's this weirdo at my void deck like staring at people when they are walking pass. Okay like literally. 

After I got down the cab so yeah. 

I'm getting a lil cranky here because I'm tired and half dead and I went to school today to do 5 emath questions. 

Well done Shermaine. 

See yourself in Mdis or Laselle for sure. 

Sidetrack,  my aircon is leaking like bitch and I can totally hear the water dripping and it's annoying me. 

How am I gonna sleep with that noise. 

Like my room is suppose to be a heaven for me to rest and all. 

Mommy, if you see this please get someone to get that fixed asap. 

Oh yeah, I'll drag them to perhaps Holland or Cathay's starbucks to study with me tomorrow. 

No doubt I can't deny that there isn't enough time already. But I still have to do all I can to prove my worth

Party coming up, so you guys know what you should do! 

Lies

I'll blog tomorrow. 

Yeah I came here just to say I'll blog tomorrow. 

How nice of me to leave some notification right?

Thought of going missing from this space but alas, I still miss blogging and like typing all my thoughts out. 

More than all the "+, -, x, %, =" to put it in simpler terms, they are called mathematical terms. 

Oh well, why am I even saying this, because O's is in let me count, 4 days time and the good news is I've not started on anything. 

Yeah yeah, I know some people will go, I only have myself to blame, so much for playing, partying, drinking, going out and ... so much 

I'll bear the consequences, worst come to worst, I'll opt for the easy way out but I'll never stop my studies until I get myself a degree even if it calls for me paying to get into SIM. 

I know I sound like some loser here whining about my studies but I seriously haven't even lift a finger on any study materials. 

Good luck and have fun Shermaine. 

This is what I call you reap what you sow. 

I'm alright now, so hopefully everything goes well tonight. 

Then in future and everything. 

No hard feelings alright. 

Same to you too 

Crimes

Alright, alright ...

That it shall be 

But it's everywhere 

I sleep late and wake up early. 

Never seem to be able to sleep well ever since. 

No hangover, the only thing I know before I slept was that I need to sleep and the moment I wake up was that I want to ... but no. 

Even after Triff and Ben went off last night, I still went out in that state 

Didn't really know how I manage to do it though but yeah somehow I did. 

The two of them plus some others have find time out to accompany me this couple of day even though they are already tied up with schoolwork on their hands. 

I'll get the pictures of them up soon. 

Now I'm feeling really hungry for like the first time after how many days and I don't know when was the last time I had a proper meal but I've to wait for momsie to pick up my phone and transfer me some cash but I think that by the time that happens.

Either my gastric will kill me or I'll be not hungry at all again. 

The big O's are like what one to two weeks away and what am I doing here?

Got back my results slip and it was, can I say crap?

My room is in a total chaos now and there's no way I'm able to study in there. 

If the worst is gonna happen, I'll just accept it

Don't give me motivational talk about how I can do it if I want to. 

If I can I will but I know myself and don't tell me that I can be defeated with a small setback and all. 

To me it's not 

All was fine 

Rach and Greg came over 

Playing dodging games with us 

After school, waiting for the usuals 

I will, I really will. 

Too hard not to 

Booze

Today is a boozing and cheddar chips night.

We will make ourself dead wasted tonight

Fiction

Now, now 

I remember this was one of those days that I'm feeling like shit too 

Still feeling... 

Thought I'll just pop over since I really can't bring myself into my books so I thought I'll bring myself into this lil space of mine here. 

Well this few days have been bad or what. 

Like nights of ...

I'm like less than a month to O's and freedom. 

So is it something worth rejoicing over, because I would finally be over with this whole secondary school shit but at the same time, what grades would I leave this school with. 

That's something worth pondering over. 

I told myself that on the day of the release of the results. 

If my results are like really bad I would walk out of the school like straightaway 

Can't stand staying in school and watching all the other happy faces, I'm happy for them but you can't blame me for being upset over my disastrous results

I only have myself to blame, no one else. 

Till now I realise I still have a lot to catch up and I might not be able to but I'll try. 

Side track, my aunt just brought me a benefit and clinique liquid foundation. 

Gonna try the both of them someday and see how it turns out. 

Never really been using liquid kind, but since I've two now, will alternate between my compact, two way and the liquid ones 

Goodnight, I'm off to lament in my miserable life 

Home

I seriously wonder why my dad whine so much at me for leaving the lights on when I'm only walking into my room to get something before going out again. 

I'm like not the one using most of the electricity at home. 

He's like the main contributor to all of it. 

I was so agitated just now, like I was happily using my laptop and on youtube and all of a sudden he switched off my room's main and I'm like what on earth is that person doing? 

But just to inform him, his daughter, yours truly knows where exactly the circuit breaker, to switch on and off the mains in the house is. 

Like I've dealed with blackouts before.

I merely had to walk out of my room and switch it on right infront of his face. So what, is he gonna play catching with me, see who can switch on and off the most time? 

I might be over-reacting about this matter but seriously, can't he be like a lil more reasonable. 

Cool down Shermaine, go do something to make you relax. 

But I know I can't. 

Classic

Time passes really fast these couple of days. 

I woke up today at an amazingly early time despite turning in only at 7 in the morning. 

Skipped school this yesterday and spent the day at home with R then over to her place. 

While I was home, I ransacked through my stuffs and found like a thousand broken pieces of memories. 

We spent our day studying a lil, watching chick vs dick and laughing at everything that's silly.

I'm probably three weeks to O's so now it goes and I can start to feel myself being pushed forward constantly. But oh well, 13th Nov, the most anticipated date for me because it's like months of fun. 

Everyone has their fair share of down times. 

For now, I'm gonna get my math and sciences right. 

Bye, will go take a shower now 

11th Sep 

One Fullerton. 

Wanted to take a bus and go to where ever it lead us too and it brought us to OF.

R the middle finger war, remember?

Despite the area being sealed up by those red and white tapes, we just stepped across them and walked into our favourite spot. 

The result was us getting bitten by some sorta weird bug and got us some unsightly rashes but mine subsided after awhile. 

After we got away from the grass patch

Snap, snap 

Yeah these were the ones 

Say hi to Mr Bickers that was brought along with us 

How about some coffee?

Of course, who can resist the temptations of iced coffee 

Oh god, seems like I'm getting a lil cranky here 

She spent quite a lot of time taking pictures of me 

Thinking of...

Four 

Goodbye Bickers. 

Anyway I'm using the phone in the picture now because R and I switched our ipods and phones for period of time