Xmasssss

Once again it has come to the festive season for the year. Christmas and then new year. This period of time is when everyone is celebrating all these occasions, getting together with friends, having fun and catching up. Though this year christmas for me was good, minus a proper christmas dinner and the gifts, still thinking of a gift to get from Mom. That is because she doesn't know what to get from me anymore, so we were thinking of a tiffany & co bracelet or something. Gonna head to town tomorrow with Ben for jap food and to look around for my belated christmas gift. My fam used to really celebrate christmas, like all the gifts would be placed under the christmas tree. Miss times like that but well things changes over time. 

So I've been partying since Wed this week, xmas eve and xmas itself, of course nonetheless it's partying again. So wed zirca, thurs, some drinks at the white bar or something, fri soul, sat zouk then to sixth ave to continue drinking at friend's place. Totally knock out on Sat night! Not as if the 8 isn't enough. Sat we continued with 5 bottles, 1 champagne and Jim beam and some I don't even know they were there but somehow I tasted it. Bumped into so many familiar faces last night, talked to them and laugh and I really didn't know what I was saying to them half the time. Oh yeah the rest drank till 1030 in the morning, but I went to sleep slightly earlier, it was fun though. Can't wait for new year's eve!  Met a lot of nice people this period of time, these really helped. Xoxo, love you all 

8th Dec 

Mich came over to look for me first before we went over to nsrcc for Carilyn's 18th birthday. 

We were damn late, like as usual. Everyone who knows us know that I'll never be early, okay occasionally but it's really rare. 

Hope you had fun that day! Left early but never mind we will meet soon, party, shopping, eat and everything k 

Went over earlier to help her with the decorations, to make the whole place have the birthday hype. 

I totally fail at blowing balloons, I take like I don't know how long to blow one up, then I don't even know how to tie the knot. 

After everything is almost done

Food, finally the food is here. We were all famished and our eyes sparkle at the sight of food. Told you that I just can't stop eating. I'm feeling hungry again right now. Really must stop eating. All this nightlife and late night snacks, worst still it's always fried food. 

After the rest started coming in 

Mich, Angeline. One side of my face is still swelling and I was damn conscious of taking pictures and all, kept trying to cover up. Nearly wore shades for the entire day just to hide. 

Time to cut the cake

Lastly, happy 18th birthday. Legal for almost everything now. 

Left at around midnight to zirca to meet Fel and Kaylie to party. Had fun that night, we ended up pretty tipsy and kept spouting nonsense on the way for supper and the way back to Fel's place. 

I had a good christmas eve, but as usual the ending part of the night was filled with the usual stuffs. So the night was at soul and finally i've learnt to stop club hopping when i'm drunk. But I started to drunk eat and I can't recall what i've ate until some time later in the afternoon when I wakes up. How bad is this, gonna gain like 5kg already. This is so sad, so I don't really know if I should still go out tonight. Gotta give myself a break man

 Cine for Rapunzel with Sel sometime back. I wanna have happily ever after like Rapunzel minus the short brunette. I'll never chop off my hair till that length, never. 

I still remember at the very sweet part of the movie, i nearly broke down. 

Happy/sad night

So tonight was beer at white bar plus 5 packs of fried food because we were really sooooo hungry. It was fun. 6 person with 7 buckets of beer. I'm a fatty now. Beer plus fried food, what do you think. Still planning to wear a cropped top tmr, to show my tummy is it? Can't wait for christmas celebration but the thought of the amount of alcohol tomorrow makes me shudder. Will be kickstarting the night at soul, any girls wanna joinnnnn? Home now, sobering up already, gonna watch playful kiss till I fall asleep. And I know why I got so drunk at rebel on wed already, what a mixture of alcohol. I can be counted as totally gone. Ahhhh, should stop typing. Enjoy your xmas eve and countdown to xmas.

I do miss everything still.
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Wed Afternoon

Woke up this morning with a ridiculous nightmare, dreamt that my finger got chopped off or something so it was dangling on my skin, it was just damn gross. I literally jumped out of bed and the first thing I did was to look at all my 10 fingers. Then I looked at the, it's already nearing 4pm. Alright, it was just a dream. Life getting more and more ridiculous recently but well, it has to go on. 

Still haven't ask the girls to party yet, because I'm actually still deciding whether I should party or not. Hmm.........

So last night after I came home, got into a little narcissism mood. Laid on my bed bbm-ing 

Laid and thought about like a thousand stuffs, how much have happened, how much has changed and how much i've to learn from everything that has happened. 

My nails are getting ruined by me after like one week, they used to last me a month 

Really love lazing at home like these nowadays, but still I can quite sick of myself, like all I do is face myself and my dramas but I just can't pull myself out of bed to head out. 

Tell me what to do with someone like myself?

I thought my mac honey love lipstick has gone missing already till I found it rolling around on my table. Played around a lil with it 

SHOULD I PARTY TONIGHT OR NOT. My life has been filled with home, food, dramas, parties and more partying. Oh man, this don't sound good. I would prefer a getaway, somewhere to shop and have fun with everyone 

You will never be back 

There she goes again

My hairstylist tong-ed my hair instead of the usual blow straight style. They just wanted to try something different for me. Though you can't really see the curls but they were definitely something different. This was when I went to get my hair dyed to a darker shade of color. 

I'm in high spirits today for god knows why, I just have to know that today was a good day, and things are good, so I hope things will stay this way. Though picnic was cancelled, went to town and I'm quite determined to start my cny shopping because I hate the clothes coming out during cny period, because they are all designed to suit the cny theme or whatever, but they are just ugly imo. Or there would be sales everywhere, sizes won't be right, ugly piles of clothings here and there. Gonna start my cny shopping next week. 

Been spending a lot of time with myself, lying in bed watching korean dramas and that's what I'm doing now too but I've this sudden urge to party tomorrow, like I just wanna party, so gonna ask the girls tomorrow. So excited, even though I don't know whether I'm gonna party or not. I'm blabbering a lot now. 

I'm really hungry now but I shall not eat, cannot be tempted to, ate a lot for today and I ate rice which was a big no. I told myself not to touch rice for a few months but I failed today. Damn, how is my diet plan ever gonna work?

Anw I took a lot of pictures with photobooth just now and I'll upload them tomorrow. I'm just too caught up with my drama and the cute guy inside. Sorry, one of those girly period. Okay, gonna continue watching my eye candy, goodnight xoxo. 

Korean dramas in bed

I've been watching a lot of dramas and loving the time with myself at home. So much has happened over these times and I really think I need to slow down. Really wanna go for christmas shopping and all. But I'm really lazy too as well. Alright, I'm gonna try to sleep earlier, wake up earlier tmr, get my eyebrows trimmed and I'm going for a picnic. Gonna catch up with my friends. So seeyaaaa
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Heavy heart

So I had my weekends pretty well spent. With all the good company, party nights and all. Christmas is coming, with all the festive season around the corner. I'm not really in the mood to be celebrating any festivals because all I can focus on is to get on with a new life.  Turns out things are still going bad for me. But whatever, I'll make it thru with the company of my perfect friends. Classmates might be driving over to look for me later. How fortunate can I get? Positive thinking Shermaine. 

Spent last night at soul for it's opening. Quite a nicely done up trance club. We were supposed to head there on Fri but the guys changed it to Sat. So it was Soul for the night for Fel's pre birthday. Nana for awhile afterwards and I was really tipsy by the end of the night. But thank god I've friends who will always make sure that I'll be home safe. 

I forgot when was this but finally had time to meet up with Pauline, Leonard, Macy, Cheryl and Roy. The girls insisted on going over to New asia bar first before heading zouk. So as usual, moet to kickstart the night 

Oh yeah, I swear I couldn't recognise P when I met her. I was like who is this person waving, and I just looked away. That moment was damn funny. Till I gave her a closer look then I'm like oh my god, it's Pauline! Finally settled my cravings for ayam penyet with her in town. We must meet again soon! 

So you can see, it wasn't long before the girls got a lil tipsy 

Told you all i've really cute friends, look at Macy. 

And then it was time for Zouk. I seriously must stop club hopping when I'm drunk. One day I might just go missing on the way here and there. No kidding. I still can't believe I went from butter to rebel to nana, tipsy and then at nana I was drunk like gone. Thank god for these people around me, what am I gonna do without them

Come back from Korea fast Macy! We miss you then we can meet the rest and partayeee the night away again.

I still feel it alright.. 

It was nice last night at wavehouse, with a couple of vodka and then we just chilled with beer. It just clears your mind for a moment and then the thoughts did struck me again. Without fail, I know it would. Nothing surprising. Left Sentosa in the cab, having my ipod playing emotional songs all the way to zouk. I created a record, first I didn't even step into zouk, secondly, I wore what I wore to the beach to zouk. Getting more and more awesome nowadays, I simply do not care and just go. I nearly went in slippers hahahaha, what a me. 

I thought I was gonna break down again, but everything became good at zouk or maybe I wasn't drunk enough to do so and the presence of everyone there just makes your tears get absorbed back? If there is even such a thing, but things were just too overwhelming. Well, so I did catch up with quite a couple of friends, had quite a few genuine laughters, which is good isn't it? Life's good like that. 

I woke up with a heavy heart, but the fact that I can type like this now shows that things are good again. But god knows when those thoughts would decide to strike me again. Hmm we shall see. Anw maybe zouk tonight? Gonna dress up, not some sloppy shit dressing again.. 

Wavehouse

Sitting at home now quite ready to be at wavehouse already. Dressed down, top, shorts and a sandals. Partying tonight with the girls. I'll see if I've the time to drop by zouk for awhile to see everyone. You know, I still really love to call zouk my home. We shall see later. 

Till then xoxo. Hope everyone enjoys your Fri night. Party again tmr. 

Oh yeah anyway went over to Butter fac this wed for it's 2nd anniversary, wasn't disappointed because it was a good night there, followed by rebel for awhile before I hopped to nana. And then I probably died there, due to over consumption of alcohol hahaha. Have zero recollections of that night but I've photos so uploading them really soon. The night ended of pretty badly for me, somehow. Life goes on.. Whatever 

Phuture sometime back with Rachel. And the rest but I really can't remember who. Miss you babe, party again soon. 

Messed up. Major messed up person okay.