Spacing out

I always seem to be spacing out when I'm doing nothing. I got sick of chasing dramas for this few days and then I turned to iphone/touch games. Thought of picking out a book to read but was too lazy to walk so I just sat there and space out. Then I started googling about the nice houses in singapore. Then I suddenly thought about hongkong. Wanna just fly over, spend some time there in the nicest hotels, just relax and pamper myself there and not think of anything. All the nice delicacies there that you would not get to eat here, places, rides, everything that's not available local. All the images made me feel like just flying over right at this very moment. I'm thinking of flying over during the next holiday, after every very first dms paper. Hmm what about it, anybody with me?

Gonna meet the girls tomorrow to party. Like after cooping myself at home for a few days and night, I think it's time to get out of home, dress up and yeah party. So probably the usual routine, phuture then nana? Will see about it. Finally able to meet up with the girls! It's like for the entire holidays, we've only seen each other like once or not at all. But well since school's starting, gonna see them almost everyday again, if only all of them moved up. Sigh 

I need to do something to my hair and everyone is telling me it's too risky to do a diy hair dye because of my hair's length. Quite true, one mistake which might result in an uneven dye, I would just hide myself at home, ok maybe not that bad but you get my point? I'm feeling really hungry now but I'm not gonna eat. I can hear my stomach growling every few minutes. I just hope time would pass faster, sleep and wake up then I would have an excuse to eat again. Refuse to eat now because I know that if I'm gonna put anything into my mouth, I would definitely feel really guilty about it then yeah keep telling myself I shouldn't eat right? Ah life sucks just like that 

I've somemore rantings to be made. If only my maid was still here. I wouldn't have to do my own bed. Wash my own dishes. I'm hoping that I won't have any hangover after ladies night, because whenever I'm suffering from a hangover, all I want would be some hot soup or a bowl of noodles which my maid would normally cook for me. But the thought of Thursday morning with none of this makes me feel like crying. We don't even have delivery for noodles here right? See, tell me how am I gonna survive. Feel so sad now. I wanna shop, but then again I'll feel guilty for spending. Why am I such a procrastinator. Whatever I should just shut up and go to bed. Goodnight and have fun tomorrow everyone 

Supperclub

Monday blues, I feel the monday blues today. It's officially the last week of my school holidays but I don't feel as if I've the mood to spend it meaningfully other than wasting it at home. But there's nothing much to be uptight about, since school would be starting at 330 everyday, I don't think it will be much of a difference from holiday. Though I would have to wake up earlier from my usual timing but well you get my point. 

Don't even have the feel to step out of my house, just feel like resting at home, getting my energy back. Though I kinda miss zouk, maybe ladies night with pauline and all on wed. Have a lil feel for nana too. Other than that, I'm pretty much over partying as for now. Till school starts when I would spend my weekdays all in school, then maybe I would be excited when the weekends are here and have the mood to party. It's like everyday is a weekend to me now. I've nothing to do everyday, only bumming around. Then waiting for plans to be made for the night, and the the routine begins. I should seriously stop ranting about my life. 

Well well might be spending later at sunset way having dinner then head home again to rot, watch my dramas. Turning into a no life kid this week. Bless me 

28th June 

It's been long since I've stepped into supperclub but I guess it probably won't be that soon too. Quite an impromptu decision to head to supperclub with Carilyn. Wanted to stay at zouk initially, but well we didn't even step in. The crowd made us think twice.. 

Jessica, Carilyn 

Was thinking of nana after supperclub but landed at neverland in the end, but it was alright too 

Irwin 

So longggggggg 

Sunday night

Watched legend of the fist yesterday : the return of chen zhen yesterday at downtown east. Soprano later in the night.
It's chilling time now with mich.
Koi and club sandwich for dinner
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I'm bored 

Zouk

So here I am home on a thurs night again. This just shows how much I've cut down on partying and all. Well but maybe I would just party next week since school's reopening the week after. One moment I say I'm cutting down, and the next I've got the urge to hit the clubs again, what's wrong with me. Well, we will see about it 

Went to school for the orientation and collection of notes this morning, I was more interested in collecting the notes then leaving school. Can't imagine I actually gave up sleep for school. More than half the class was filled with international students, thank god I went through foundation first. Tiong bahru plaza for 18 chef with Jovene and Georgina before going over to ikea to look at furnitures. Told them I wanted to browse through the bed sections because I'm really gonna get a new bed. 

I hear mommy's alarm ringing, feels to not have to wake up early for school. Talking about this, for the whole of this sem, school starts at 330pm for me, awesome or what? But the bad thing about dms is there's 6 days of school. Think I'm gonna be labeled as no life kid once school starts. I'm not gonna start having the thoughts of skipping schools unless it's hmm necessary? I shall decide what I deem as necessary again. 

I just heard my stomach growl, why am I always hungry at this hour? 

26th Aug 

Phuture with Carilyn and all quite some time ago 

All I remember was that I was normal for quite sometime before all of a sudden the effect of the alcohol start kicking in, so I was pretty high throughout the entire night 

Velvet is always this chill 

My face never used to turn this red 

Nana after Zouk, this is a usual routine. 

Forgotten

I had a chill night at west coast park with good company. It's been long since I've taken time off from partying and doing something nice on a chilly wednesday night. Wednesday night, all the texts and bbm you receive would be asking about where to party tonight and all, but turned down everything. No partying for me tonight. Played with sparkles and fire. Feels good to feel young once again. But it's back to reality now, I know very well where I stand. 

I've to be up at 6am later for orientation, if not for the study notes that they would be giving out, I would not even bother turning up. What's worst is I've to get all the admin stuffs done at the hq before heading over to the management house. Tell me how much trouble would all that be?

There's one really disastrous news. That is my maid is gonna be sent back to indo tomorrow. Which means no maid again. I really hope Momsie picks out one that can really last in the family. Keeping my fingers cross. 

See some of you tomorrow if not we will find some days to meet up! 

Darkness

Need some warmth. Do I really have to be like that?
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Nana

So what I initially had in mind was to chill with iphone games tonight but somehow headed to Nana to meet June, irwin and gabe, then the rest later. Tonight was a pretty good night and nana in the later part. Promised myself not to get drunk and I did it. The bouncers there were betting with me that I would get tipsy at 3am and when I didn't they said 4am but I didn't even till the end of it. Or rather I just controlled myself, this proves that I can actually do it.

Met Ben at Clem for awhile before Mich and Renzo came along. Sometimes just chilling somewhere with a cup of my favourite drink, cigarettes and the right company is just what we need. 

Well well, I think I need some sleep now before heading to sim hq later. So lazy to do so but today is already the deadline, even though it's like only a 3 minute bus ride to there but I'm still really lazy. I hope my cramps could just spare me, first I was feeling so hungry and now this. Hate this and I'm feeling a little insane right now so yeah, probably will be back to update again tomorrow so meanwhile pictures hehe

Some time back having sakae buffet with Mich. Been talking about going for the buffet for a really long time already. Up next, Astons/Marche, craving like shit for it. I can actually settle for ayam penyet too! 

I love sashimi like really a lot 

We just kept eating and eating. That's why I feel like a pig 

Headed home and if I didn't remember wrongly. Popped over to phuture for ladies night. 

Yes and really have to thank Nicole for helping me check my results while I was out and bbm-ing the results to me. Yay love all my classmates and I'm so glad that most of us are gonna be in the same class in Oct. School's startinggggg.

Gonna sleep my cramps away, bye

Never alone?

All I knew was it was Henderson wave to surprise mich before heading to the east then zirca for the night. God knows what came over me on Fri night. So yeah drama, sorry for everything. 

Woke up this afternoon with a spoilt blackberry, should I get iphone 4 if I can't get my bb back to life? It was struggling to come alive just now, got revived for about 5 minutes before dying again. So I'm gonna let it rest for maybe a few hours before doing cpr on it again. Hope it doesn't die on me because M1 doesn't allow me to do a one for one exchange, because they claim that it's spoilt because it's on contact with water when I'm pretty sure that I haven't dump my phone into a bucket of water or whatever before. It was all fine then all of a sudden it just died. Well, if it really dies, I think it's better for me to get an iphone 4 better than get the same phone for the 3rd time. Because it's seriously insane yeah?

 

Caught Shock of Labryinth just now with Carilyn at cine. Went all the way down to paragon with high hopes of getting an exchange but what to do? 

Please please please, I hope my phone would be revived tomorrow when I wake up so I don't have to stick with this lousy phone for long. Sigh 

So now even my gastric is coming down on me, I feel so hungry but I just don't wanna move my legs to the kitchen, eat something and grow fat. Not like I'm not, I don't need to be fatter. Ah whatever, life sucks but have a good day people 

29th Apr 

I kinda realise that I missed this couple of photos out in my past updates so since I've the time now and I can't really sleep, I thought I should just get this up. It's like 0654 now, looking at the sky through the slits from my curtains. I think I shall call it a day soon, wanna get some good rest to compensate for the lack of sleep this weekend. I hope Koi opens tomorrow so I can get some tomorrow before maybe heading to west coast to get my phone fixed if it still doesn't work. Stop digressing Shermaine, get back to the topic 

One fullerton with bbg after school 

Starbucks is one of our fav hangout there now 

She can just continue to act like she's really gonna study 

Just give up ok? And love you for everything 

Is that the truth?

Pierced

On the way now to meet michelle and the others for dinner. I'm contemplating on whether to head to nana later. I feel really weird. Disappointment and all. Maybe it's just myself. I've no idea

I spent the late hours of last night, struggling to fall asleep but I couldn't do it. Is this all just another facade?
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Thoughts

Sometimes people ask why do I like partying and drinking so much? Why do I always think that my life sucks? I always say nothing much. The truth is there is something but I can never put them into words. I doubt anyone would be able to understand me even if I were to say it out. So what's the point of saying? I can never bring myself to trust someone enough to say everything out. 

It's not that I love drinking and getting drunk. It's because getting drunk can make me forget everything just for that moment. Even if it were to be just for that moment, it's lessening so much pain from myself. I know that the next day I would have to wake up and snap back into reality, but I just find myself confiding in alcohol. Yes sometimes getting drunk makes it worst but at least the moment I'm home, throw myself onto my bed, I can not think of anything and just fall asleep. Which is what I would never be able to do when I'm sober. 

Skipped dinner and had a bowl of bird nest for supper. 

Should do this more often, still feeling very bloated now though. 

Need to continue my diet 

Randoms

Honestly I can't wait to be able to drive.
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I wanna go back to mbs for a stay. Just like chill there for the entire night.
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Insomnia

Been tossing and turning in bed since 0530. Sucky much. So now that I'm already lying in bed listening to 97.6fm. One of my fav radio station, was initially tuned to class 95 though. Wanted to get a taste of those good oldies for the night but it was kind of a disappointment. Hopefully gonna meet S to get my mmc back tmr because now I'm stucked with a cam with no mmc so I feel a lil handicapped. Not like I really make use of my cam nowadays but you know the feeling. I bet no one knows, because I don't even know what I'm trying to say here.

Anw I'm gonna try giving partying a miss this week to save up for some pretty heels, bags and clothes. Think it's pretty worth it huh. Rather then seeing my cash going to all the booze and late night cabs, worst still, unnecessary supper. Everyone says that wouldn't happen. But wait and see hehe. Maybe like cut down, once per week? Or twice, it's alr better than like what, thrice or even four times a week right?

I wanna travel! Who wanna bring me on a holiday, don't even mind squeezing into your luggage. That's if I can fit. Goodnight everyone, I'll try to catch some sleep again. Insomnia really sucks a lot. Sometimes I really like blogging from my berry teehee

Chill-home Saturday

I'm gonna lie in bed tonight reading my book and watching my dramas. Finally after such a long wait, season 2 for vampire diaries is out but I'm not gonna chase it till more episodes are out, or at least till I complete my current obsession. 

I seriously need to stop thinking of food. Everyday when I'm out with the rest, we would first meet for our meal, go around then we find some place to chill with some more finger food. What is this? Even as I'm typing now I'm already craving for some really nice food for supper but I'm just gonna lie in bed to nurse my sore throat, cough and migraine. What's more is I'm supposed to be a diet, but my current diet plan doesn't really seem like it. 

I gave partying a miss tonight. Don't wanna party consecutively for four days. I still have a lot of time to party so I thought I should leave a saturday night for myself to rest or chill with some close friends but in this case, it's a stay home night and there's nothing really bad about it. 

Went for some shopping today and Mich brought me for dry meehoonkueh at FEP and I'm craving for it now too. Wanna have 18 chefs too, miss din tai fung's xlb and a lot more. Stop, stop. I can't rant on twitter because everyone following me will be complaining that I'm flooding their timeline and all, so I'm only left with this lil space here. 

Phuture last night was so horrible because it was so packed. It was the first time I rather be in zouk. Supper/breakfast, by the time the food arrives it was already like morning. We were all famished after looking for a place to settle down for some food. I think I'm just fated to have maggie goreng for supper hehe, but it's ok because I love them especially spize's ones! Still failed to try zouk's hotdog mash though. 

21st Aug

Ladies night at phuture. Was pretty last minute and I practically look like shit that night so.......

I'm only gonna post up pictures of carilyn and her friends. 

See you soon again babe! For shopping and more food and chilllllll

Except for one, so that I'll still remember that I'm even there 

If I wasn't wrong, headed to nana after zouk. That's like becoming a standard thing to do already 

Gonna go put on my face mask, then I'm gonna chill in my room. Maybe with a glass of wine? 

All up

I want a new camera, what's a good model to get? Actually I should totally make my way down to suntec when the it fair is still on to take a look and all the different models right? Because every different brand is just a minute walk away. But too bad, I was just too lazy during that period of time, all I knew was to lie in bed all day. What a pig. This is my life during my holidays what, tell me what else can I do besides that? 

So it was dempsey for some drinks last night, then coffee club for tea and salad. Even wanted to head to the east for some supper. I know we just can't stop eating but we promised ourselves not to party and we did it.

Anyway was at spize and swirl art with Mich just now. It's been the 5th day that she has been to my place to meet me first consecutively already. I think my place is turning into her second home. Hmmmmm

Ok, I'm gonna go search for some good cameras now. And might be heading to nana later, might be. Hehehehehe, have a good night. 

Mich says she totally prefer my hair to be all tied up, like fringe and all. But the only time I stepped out of my place with my hair all tied up was during my o level period. I remember that I was having my math paper that day and it's really annoying to have your hair falling all over the place, with that big fan or like they say aircon blowing directly into you. I would probably be spending a quarter of the time trying to hold my hair in place, start doing my paper and then the hair comes all over again. So I was thinking to hell with it, anyway i'm gonna head straight home after the paper so why not?

I think I digressed a lil too much 

I always don't like to have my hair all up because every single flaws on your face can be seen! You know what I mean? 

And sigh, my lashes are just so invisible without mascara. So I really can't live without them. You can't even see them today. Lashes where are you? I'm just too lazy nowadays to even apply mascara 

WHAT CAMERA SHOULD I GET?

I feel a lil cranky tonight

City

I've been away from this space for quite a couple of days already. I really have no idea how I've spent my last few days. If I didn't remember wrongly, it should be sleep, eat, drink, play and sleep again. I know it sounds really boring. I'm either sleeping or partying. How interesting can life get in this small town. 

To sum up, I've been to bugis, town, rebel, supperclub, zouk and nana this week. It really sucks to be awake every morning with a major hangover that's gonna land you in bed for half of the day. Till now I can still the headache and I feel like dying. So I swore to myself that I'm not gonna touch any liquor tonight. No way

Gonna meet Beelay, Jovene and Michael later at dempsey to chill. Need to get some air and clear my head. It feels so heavy. I'll try to catch up on all the backdated posts and meet everyone. It's so annoying that I'm so free now and almost everyone else are having their exams. Well, at least mine's over and I need not worry about it because I'm officially moving up to dms. 

17th Aug 

Went over to have the shoot taken for the clothes. 

And I swear I really can't take the colour of my hair anymore. It would be either darker brown or violet red. Can some of you decide for me pretty please. I know what my hair colour looks like, don't have to harp on it any longer. 

Totally no idea when was the last time I'm out since the sun was shining this brightly 

Like some paparazzi, walk a few steps, snap one time. Must maintain a good image at all time 

Crystal jade's congee. My favourite

Dragged Mich along with me to have dinner there, because I was like starving already 

Beef noodles or something and I'm falling in love with the soup 

What a coincidence that Ben and Triff were in bugis as well. Met for a lil while to catch up 

Yes I know, eat again. 

Alright, whatever we didn't touch anything from the plates. Because I was so determined not to eat. So it was down to those two 

I miss dailyscoops waffle and brownie 

I wanna go to waffle town too. 

Can I add in chomp chomp and newton as well?

Xoxo